I’ve been struggling for awhile with a form of writer’s block. Not the kind you might think of, where you can’t think of anything to write. That has never been my problem. My problem is that there is too much going on in my head. My mind has always moved fast & in several directions at once. Its always given me a form of ADD where different thoughts compete for attention and I follow trains of thought around and around.

This is one of the reasons why talking to me can be a danger, because I begin to verbally express all the things going around in my head, often times processing them by talking.

When I first started my first blog, one of its purposes was to help drain out all the things going around in my head by processing them out in writing. I often found that I had an easier time working on sermons after blogging because I had cleared out so many of the “voices” running around in my head.

In the last few years, I’ve stopped writing, but not stopped thinking. I’ve turned often to social media to verbally process, but repeatedly gotten myself in trouble because when you share unrefined and raw thoughts (and feelings) you can end up saying things that cause hurt or offence, which I have found myself doing.

Yet the various thoughts, ideas, trains of thinking, and musings continue to swirl until I can’t do much of anything. It becomes like a mental hurricane where so much is happening you can’t do anything.

So I’m back on my blog today. And I’m going to go back to my roots. If I end up writing something that I feel like sharing, I will. If you follow this blog, you’ll hear a bit of what is chasing around in my head. It may be a thought thread that I don’t end up believing, it may be random ramblings, but it will be honest. I’ll apologize in advance if the picture you get is of an incredibly flawed man who doesn’t always think, feel, or speak as he should, especially as a “pastor.” That is what I am. I deeply flawed man trying to trust Jesus, live in His love, love others, and be wise in a world that is quite the big hot mess.

I’m tired of being stuck in my head. I need to write. You don’t need to read, but you are welcome if you choose to.

Onward & Forward.